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Archive for November, 2007

vomit in the sink

I am so ill today that it feels like my brain exploded inside my skull. I am 3 hours late for the thing I am going to. I might get there within an hour if I can sort myself out. I just dragged myself to the bathroom (literally, dragged), and found the post title. Nice. [...]

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oh, the glamour

We’re all sitting around the board table folding guestlists, scoring cards with scissors and stapling the two together. Tonight, we are holding our big annual do. Because we never spend money on useful things like outsourcing this mundane aspect of event management (and because Events Lady is about as organised as a goldfish so it’s [...]

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Protected: quiet wednesday: the verdict

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quite freaked out

I don’t know how you got here, or what you are doing here, but I don’t like it. I don’t like to blur the lines between life and blog. Stalking isn’t cool, you know.
I am watching.

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sorry if i am boring you…

If you are tired of any of the current themes on my blog, then I apologise. This is where my life is at right now. I am stuck here for the time being. I feel in limbo, I feel I cannot move from the spot where I currently “sit”. As much as I want my [...]

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Protected: he plays tonight

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i am a weak twat

Not only is there a great possibility that I have what is delightfully called an “incompetent cervix” (thanks for that LG), but I am also a weak twat in general.
Fire Man and I exchanged a couple of 5-line emails earlier, pleasant stuff about a presentation he is writing. Two each way. I didn’t reply to [...]

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A friend of mine is going through a marriage break up. Never having been married, I cannot really understand how awful it must be. I suppose my silly relationship dramas pale into insignificance in comparison. We were talking on MSN. I wanted to send him that little hug sign you can send, but it wouldn’t [...]

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Protected: don’t you just hate him too?

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I HATE THE TRANSPORT PLANNER

WHY DOES HE HAVE TO TALK ON HIS PHONE ALL NIGHT?!?! AND LOUD ENOUGH FOR IT TO TRAVEL UP THROUGH THE FLOOR TO MY ROOM?
ARGH!

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macy fucking gray

Why is it so fucking hard to just ignore him and be done with it?

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pastures new

Guys, I have been doing a lot of thinking about Blue soup recently. I am 75% decided on calling it a day here and heading off. I know I am under pressure from all sides at the moment so am prone to rash behaviour and will take a bit longer to mull this over, but [...]

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spelling bee

To Events Lady,
It’s “briefing” not “breifing”. Fucking learn it for Christ’s sake.  The emails you send out look and read like durge. You’re supposed to be senior management.
Blah,
Blue soup

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NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!
Oh, and FM decided to text me at lunchtime to say: “If you were in work today, I would be down your neck of the woods; I’m at [insert big important organisation just down the road]! How are you doing? x x x”
So, I replied: “I am at work. Backlog here is something else. I [...]

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less than one hour in…

I am starting this with an “emergency” coffee. It is 10am. Already, I am miserable to be back. Shall we have a look at reasons why?

The stupid business man with the FT on the tube this morning: If you really are going to insist on purchasing a broadsheet to read on a packed tube [...]

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it’s a small world (again)

As if the stuff with knowing people that know Fire Man wasn’t enough to convince me that we live in a tiny little world, my housemate (Desk Editor) dragged me and Gaming Editor and Nanu and Nanu’s GF, Pixie, over to Mudchute on the Isle of Dogs tonight (yeah, I know, where the hell is [...]

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Protected: target practice

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It was about 4.15pm Saturday afternoon. I was at Clapham Junction. The story so far is that I got to Little Place and I wanted to buy an extension ticket from boundary zone 3 to Cesspit but, surprise surprise, there wasn’t a single member of staff to be found at Little Place to purchase aforementioned [...]

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crazy karla

Picture the scene… it’s about half midnight here in London. Outside it is one of those beautifully cold and crisp nights. Your blog host here is curled up in bed, lap top on knees, MSNing our lovely Jen, our dear Dan, and uni friend Boyband. The phone rings and it is Sales Girl, who drunkenly [...]

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Protected: you do NOT need the details…

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mickey mouse

I know it is baaaaad, but taking time to rest goes hand in hand with watching terrible daytime telly. And boy oh boy it is bad! God love Freeview! So, right now it’s Ricki Lake. (Earlier it was Jeremy Kyle, Montel, This Morning, Neighbours, some awful home improvement show, TMC etc etc).
And on Ricki Lake [...]

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Protected: beardy

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Protected: i must just be super sensitive…

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ratty games

Here’s my girls last night playing on my bed with the cork from a bottle of wine (not that it is made of real cork).
AND WILL SOMEONE BLOG PLEASE?! I’m so bored of resting!!!

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talking cats

watch this:

then watch this:

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Protected: dan, i owe you a quid

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…and PLEASE don’t judge me on it…
But I just saw the Tescos advert where the Spice Girls are all buying their Christmas presents and keep trying to hide from one another and I nearly peed myself with laughter. What a FANTASTIC advert. Absolutely brilliant good fun. I might have to stop rolling my eyes when [...]

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Protected: “me” time

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Protected: easing it

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Protected: shorthand

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set you free

I have thought long and hard about what Pinky said in her last comment. I do wonder, as so many of you have mentioned it, if it really is just me with the problem here.
Anyway, I think I have come to a decision about it. Although this is subject to change naturally, and sitting here [...]

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Protected: how can people be such shit writers?

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Protected: it all comes down to

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one rollercoaster i’m not riding

Tonight Fire Man has really hurt my feelings. Possibly unintentionally, possibly not. I dunno. I wish I wasn’t so sensitive. So that is the end of this rollercoaster ride. I am too fragile for this at the moment. You’re all absolutely right. M Joy nailed it with the “supposed to be fun” comments.
It’s the same [...]

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Protected: piss on my parade

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Protected: i’m a fiver behind

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i lost track

See previous post, then answer me this question:
Who is on Team Fire Man these days anyway? 

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Protected: see no evil, hear no evil… um, smell no evil

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Protected: i’ll run for you too

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some things are unforgivable

Or so “they” say.
I have wondered if I will ever find myself unable to forgive someone. I have forgiven some pretty nasty shit - Longterm Ex and I almost became friends a few years after I found another girl in our bed, I even lent him £500, after miserable years at school Me But Not [...]

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healing - or not

oh god, something has happened overnight I might have to miss my hair appt later as I “have to rest”. Stupid colposcopy nurse was as helpful on the phone as a chocolate tea pot. Told me to go to A&E if it seems to be worsening. Why doesn’t anyone ever seem bothered at that [...]

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frightened on a friday

Had been alright this evening. Went for a drink with Perpetual and then to Gaming Editor’s for spag bol and TV. Then I walked all the way home. This is good. I felt good because of it, it means I am feeling better physically.
But I have hit another drop. I can’t explain it but I [...]

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cervix scares

Text from Another Doctor:
A mate of mine might get in touch, she saw me join your group on Facebook and has some questions (she’s just had a referral). Hope that’s ok. xxxx PS - I really fancy her so be super nice, not that you wouldn’t usually.
Poor thing. So, maybe I can answer her questions [...]

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pinned down

Well, here is news on the is he still interested or not? front. It appears that all this thinking about Fire Man’s intentions may actually be off mark.
He has suggested that he mooches over to my place on Sunday - “that way you don’t even have to move x x x”. So, I have ok-ed [...]

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I wouldn’t want anyone to say that Blue soup is full of useless rantings. I would also like to occasionally be a public information service. So, with the vegetable debate raging (well, not exactly raging), here is some useful (or not) stuff about vegetables.
The guidelines say:

Fresh, frozen, chilled, canned, 100% juice and smoothies all count, [...]

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Protected: even i can’t keep up

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two questions

1. Why are all the men I ever get even remotely involved with twats?
2. How far can a dog run into a forest?

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Fire Man is an utter [insert expletive] He just is. No amount of smooth text messages will veil the fact that he is just a stupid little boy with a way with words and the arrogance to argue with a senior level executive in  front of a room full of his peers (yes, his argument [...]

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Protected: ear ear

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Protected: besides, you have stupid little ears

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fire man f*@&!!!!!

I know I am only feeling sensitive because I am on a downer and incredibly tired, but still…
I felt guilty earlier because FM always texts me first. I felt that, given that I may be wrong about him (I said MAY), perhaps I ought to try harder at this “benefit of the doubt” thing and [...]

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what goes up must come down

I just bottomed out in a big way.
I can’t do this.
I’m so tired.
I got on my train after my course and it started moving and I was just hit by a wave of total despair and couldn’t stop the tears. On a fucking train!!
I can’t do this.

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I love you lot.
I love my Real Life friends.
I can’t get over what a wonderful bunch of people I have met over the years and am lucky enough to call friends. What a generous and supportive crowd! I set my just giving page up yesterday lunchtime.
Just over 24 hours later and the donations of these [...]

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Protected: venting is never gonna let me hear the end of this one…

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Protected: lick of paint

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Right. I have set up the Justgiving page. My, this is all so confusing. I am sure I have forgotten to do something!  Haven’t got time to email people about it yet. Will have to set up a Facebook group, best way to touch lots of people quickly.  It’s looking mighty bare at the moment! [...]

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bang the drum

I had a text from a friend today that got me thinking. With this cervical cancer stuff, I have two main options (although too many sub-options to bear thinking about).
I can do one of two things:

Let it eat me up inside, cry, be scared, hide from life and let this condition flatten me. OR
Come out [...]

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Protected: head in the clouds

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washing

ARGH! THE BLOODY WASHING MACHINE IS BEEPING IN THE KITCHEN AND I CAN HEAR IT FROM MY BEDROOM TWO FLOORS UP!!!!!!!!!
ARGH
ARGH
ARGH!!!!!

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fire man funnies

I have some great text messages from FM to share with you guys. He’s been making me laugh this evening. He thinks he is so smooth and I think he thinks I am smitten. I haven’t got the energy to type them out though so wait for tomorrow lovelies.
Believe me, they are good. Or maybe [...]

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sunday night rage

My lovely Sunday is done with. I am in bed. Stupid wanky Transport Planner is in his room on the floor down from me, bellowing into his phone because he can’t seem to JUST TALK into it. Honestly, I don’t want to hear the murmuring of his conversation. I think it is all the more [...]

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number three

Bouquet number 3 arrived today from Tall Perfect Blond One. Apologies for the terrible photo. I am feeling and looking like death today so struggling to do most things. This includes snap shots.
I can’t flower arrange at the best of times so I won’t show you the mess that has ended up in the vase.

Lovely [...]

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Well, Banker Man’s chance went out the window tonight. I suppose he didn’t really have the best shot at it, if I am honest, but I’ve just spent the evening thinking “naaah”.
This afternoon I got the bus all of half a mile down the road to Gaming Editor’s place and have been sitting on [...]

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Protected: sometimes i don’t deserve the people in my life

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heavy

i’m rubbish today. been lying on some pillows just staring at the wall and thinking. i took a walk around the corner to the hairdressers. i’m booked in for next saturday afternoon. i didn’t say anything but she could tell right away that something was up. “ah, my kimberley will sort you out, love,” she [...]

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Protected: i can’t take any more

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…are underrated:

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Protected: distraction#2: psychoanalysis of male contact

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This came through at 7.20 am when I was lying in bed grappling with tummy ache and trying to muster up the energy to take a dose of pain killers. Maple Moose still lives in Little City. She was coming up to London today for a course (and yesterday too actually - she texted me [...]

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Good news: I am home. I am even up. I have eaten. I have bickered with my Dad and with Beardy. It doesn’t hurt like I thought it would.
Bad news: It does hurt. Fuck me, it hurts. Constant throbby pain. I can only compare it to a donkey repeatedly kicking a tender spot inside. It [...]

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the op

Well, today is the day.
I go in at noon. On Monday I signed away SGH’s liability for me and a form stating that a repsonsible adult (my Dad) would pick me up and take me home in a car (or taxi, it said that public transport was “not acceptable” - no shit Sherlock).
So, here’s hoping [...]

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Protected: segment 2: worst ever… EVER!

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Protected: decisions decisions

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all change

On top of yesterday’s fun and games, I have had news of a password leak. It doesn’t rain but it pours.
From today the password is changing. While I ordinarily email around the new one, I am not doing that this time. Anyone who wants the new password, please email me (through the contacts page in [...]

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eastbound line suspended

Blue soup is suspended for the time being because I am in a really bad mood.
The second segment of the tale will just have to wait. I don’t think I can be arsed to write it at all.

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Protected: i ain’t go no love left for you

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Protected: i got love for you if you were born in the… um, 70s

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Protected: i get knocked down but i get up again

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my back

I have totally fucked it.
I dunno if we’re talking in the same league as poor LondonGirl but my goodness me something is wrong with it! I don’t know if it is because I slept a bit funny at Nursey’s house last night, or whether it was from Gaming Editor and Banker Man’s sofa this evening, [...]

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Protected: r.i.p meredith

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Protected: a quiet friday night

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licky polly

I said she was totally cute and gorgeous.

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Protected: because i am a total fuckwit…

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Protected: battle of the bulge… gulp

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i hate my work colleagues

EG keeps blowing her nose. Every two minutes. I want to turn around and tell her to really blow it hard and stop with these pathetic little parps into her hanky that sound like someone rustling a carrier bag.
Events Lady doesn’t know how to turn off tracked changes on the document she is farting about [...]

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wounded. again.

Physically this time. Explanation in this comment.

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I’m not a fan. It just works today. I blame the shuffle facility on my iPod and wearing a pashmina today which prevented me untangling myself to find aforementioned music device and skip ahead to the next track.
Called The Shit Song, you can find both the album version and live performances on YouTube.
And let me [...]

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Protected: the drop

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