I have spent today crippled by the worst pounding headache you ever knew. I haven’t been able to move from bed and have slept for most of the day, getting up to have a shower, but then returning to bed straight after.
I met with Fire Man last night for a few drinks though. I looked great, if I do say so myself. The drugs I am taking have dampened my appetite somewhat so I have lost weight in the two months since I last saw him. Although I am tired and feel down about a lot of things, I am also in a very good place mentally. Yeah, I do hate my job and I’m constantly tired but I feel much more comfortable about who I am and being on my own so the Soupy who met Fire Man outside Goodge Street station last night was a very different girl to the insecure girl he played with at the end of last year.
We had a good time. I think this was helped massively by the fact that I didn’t want him like I used to. I wasn’t trying to make him like me, I didn’t care. I was just me. We talked about what we had been up to, nothing much seems to have changed in his life whereas I had loads to share - the stuff I am doing for Jo’s, being a motorbike freak now, beginning a vague job hunt. He seemed to enjoy seeing me, but everything was hazy by the end of the evening for me. We parted on the tube and I went home. I recall that he leant over to kiss me while we were walking to the tube station from the bar but I laughed him off and it didn’t happen.
So, that’s the end of that. Maybe we’ll stay in touch and some odd friendship may materialise. Maybe we will just drift off and not cross paths again. I have no idea, just watch this space.
Well it sounds like the Fire Man thing is almost finally resolved. Maybe the headache is tension? Try and relax if you can?!? Although I realise that might not be a helpful suggestion so apologies.
Good luck with the interview Soupy. Even though you might not be feeling optimistic about it, it could be really great practice for when you go for someting you really want. Good luck.
hugs x
Good luck tomorrow. Feel better xx
what drugs are you taking . . . i want some of those.
Hope your feeling better soon
Jvalways - erm, prozac
I wish I was kidding!! They’ve also doubled my dose!! Hmm, will see how it goes.
Thanks everyone x
I’m sorry to hear about your headache but pleased to hear about how you left things with FM.
I total stranger butting into totally private lives is not going to be taken kindly to, I know, but really you should avoid any kind of drugs - I don’t what type you’re taking anyway - whether for losing weight or/and for feeling good or anything.
I apologize for this unsolicited comment, but felt I needed to say something, even though I landed here purely randomly.
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Take Care and stay happy…
Hiya Sumedh, thanks for dropping in. I don’t take drugs for weight loss and those that I am taking for health reasons have been discussed with my doctors and I am happy with the treatment that they are providing me with, their diagnosis and the resultant prescriptions. Not everyone agrees with antidepressants and that is fine by me, but I am not one of those people and each to their own I say
Glad to hear you’re over him - you said a while back that you wanted to be at the stage where you just ‘didn’t care’ - it sounds like you’re there
Well done!
Oh and about the Jos Trust thing, I know it’s your life and you know what you are doing, but maybe with everything else going on in your life and head - maybe it’s asking a bit much of you to take on someone else’s problems too - or does it feel good to help?
yeah, true. Anyway, I wish you unmeasurable happiness which I am certain the future has in store for you…
Watch out for firemen. My sister dated one and he was a scumbag. They are usually off for 4 or 4 days a week and they tend to chase tail during this period. Also, since 9-11, being a fireman has a bit more prestige for some reason. Its weird, if a bunch of schizophrenic Baptists died in a nuclear blast would broads be aching to get with me?
I find that drinking water is a good cure for a headache. It helps to rehydrate you. Funnily enough, water is like that.