niggles

Niggle 1

I had a call yesterday from the Colposcopy sister at my hospital. My 6 month follow up has long been scheduled for next Friday, and for the past couple of weeks, I have felt increasingly anxious about it. I suppose that this is only natural, it’s a fear of the unknown. I have only just got back to somewhere near normal, and the threat of the consultant potentially finding something else bad has me het up. I would like to point out here that the success rate for my procedure is very high. Figures vary from place to place, but some 95-98% of women have one treatment and are cured. No more naughty cell trouble again. So, the stats really ARE on my side. But of course, a pessimist is never disappointed, and I am almost too afraid to hope that I will be one of the majority.

But anyway, the sister said that they want me in sooner - erm, tomorrow at 9am to be precise. First thing on a SATURDAY morning? I queried this and said that my appointment was just one week away anyway. “Yes,” she replied, “but we now have this Saturday clinic and want you in for it.” I said that I have managed to get Friday morning off work no problem, and the Saturday appointment would probably be more valuable for a lady who doesn’t have such an understanding place of work. She repeated that they wanted me in, would I be able to come into the unit at 9am? Well, I sighed and agreed.

I know nothing else. Just that apparently they should have seen me after 4 weeks. I am sure she said weeks, although I was a bit confused so maybe she said months. What I don’t understand is that my follow up appointment was scheduled immediately after my operation - it was the hospital that gave me the appointment date - so why have they called to say that it is wrong and I must be seen sooner???? I am trying not to think about it. I will let you know. Fingers crossed for me at 9am!

Niggle 2

Last night they (being people I won’t specify) gave out NINETEEN Honorary Life Memberships!!! Fucking ridiculous!!! It’s supposed to be a coveted prize for hard work and dedication to the organisation and Dumb Blonde gave out 19, making a mockery of the entire thing and diluting the worth of the honour. Stupid, stupid bitch. Argh. And I thought I didn’t care. At least this dumbarse lot make us look better, but still… all that hard work… down the fucking toilet at the hands of utter imbeciles!!!